Today is the official 5 year anniversary of seek + be. I never could have imagined what this little dream would turn into!
Some of you may know that I started seek + be at a time when I was trying to figure out a way to work from home. I was newly diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and a neuro-immune disorder. I was working at a job I loved, but I knew my days were numbered because I was missing more and more work. I had been making jewelry off and on for years and thought it would be a way for me to work from home while I tried to manage my symptoms.
I took a leap of faith and made seek + be a legit business. I created a small collection of jewelry - at that time I was making pieces with silver and semi-precious stones. We had a party to celebrate, where I officially launched my first website. I'll never forget how big and nerve-wracking that moment felt. I was so nervous to show my jewelry but I had a really incredible group of women that supported and believed in me. They stood right beside me and celebrated the occasion.
Unfortunately for me, my timing was terrible and just as I began getting this little dream of mine off the ground, I entered the most debilitating time of my illness and spent nearly 2 years unable to work on this little business I loved so much. I tried to do as much as I could in 20 or 30 minute spurts, as my body would allow. Or on the occasional "good" day, I would make as many pieces as I could, not knowing when the next good day would be.
Thankfully, I eventually found a medical team that helped me significantly improve my symptoms and I got a new lease on life in 2015. After trying 8 or 9 different pain medications, we finally found a combination that worked and I slowly started getting my life back. I focused my attention once again on this little business and started building a following.
About a year later is when my husband was diagnosed with cancer, and I immediately put my business on hold, not knowing what the future would be. We couldn't even fathom what the next days or weeks held, let alone months down the road. So, I held my breath and mentally and emotionally prepared myself to shut seek + be down while I began care taking and helping my husband through his treatment and surgeries. It was a heartbreaking time - not only was the man I love going through the most difficult time, a literal fight for his life, I was also coming to grips with the reality that my dream was coming to an end.
From beginning to end, his cancer journey was over 2 years, between diagnosis, chemo, radiation, multiple surgeries, and more chemo. It's been almost a year since his final surgery and although it took awhile, we've slowly started to get back to "real life". He was able to start back to work and I began working more on seek + be. I came back more focused than ever and started working on building the collection you see today.
Although seek + be is technically 5 years old, in some ways, it feels like it's only a few months old. It felt like getting the new studio space was a re-birth and a new chapter. These last 3 months have been the most concentrated time and effort I've been able to put towards building this dream and it has been nothing short of life-changing.
The journey to get here has not been straight forward and it hasn't been easy - it has been messy and complicated and beautiful and hard and amazing. It has been built not in the grand all-at-once while “having all my ducks in a row” way that I had always imagined it would be. It was built in moments - tiny increments of time, few and far between in my first few years as my body would allow. It was built in daydreams as I mentally escaped the hardest moments of care taking.
So much blood, sweat and tears have gone into building this little business. I don't share the struggles for sympathy, only to share and celebrate the fact that building something you truly love is both beautiful and messy. It's the easiest AND the hardest thing you'll ever do.
And if you have a dream, I want to encourage you to go for it. Because the mess, the tears, all the 16+ hour days, all the doubts, all the questioning, it's all worth it. The journey has been less than perfect but I've learned more about myself in the last 5 years than I ever have before. The story of seek + be is messy and it's still being written, but it is also incredibly beautiful.
I never could have imagined where I’d be 5 years later, but here I am…more in love, more myself and more passionate about sharing my art than ever before. I am SO grateful for this journey, for the women it has allowed me to serve, for the community that has continued to encourage and support me and for every day that I get to come into this little studio of mine where I get to create beautiful things.
Thank you for allowing me to share my passion with you and thank you for an incredible 5 years. Here are some of my favorite moments so far. Cheers to many more!